So here I am. I've decided to give blogging a try.
Well, in all honesty it's try #2. When I was first pregnant with my beautiful little girl I gave it a try...once. It was called "9 Months the Natural Way". So what happened? If I remember right, my computer caught a cold, life got busy & then I chickened out.
It really is too bad. I read it today, before I deleted it from cyber world. My one and only post. It sounded like it would have been a good blog to follow. Yet it never went past the first post...
So, I chickened out. Not that I thought it was un-interesting or anything like that. It was more like... I started doubting my ability. You know, the ability to do things ~ the whole ~ 9 months ~ NATURALLY. I had done it twice before, thought it would be a breeze the third. This time I was six years older & I had to take off work for about 6 months... I started to think it might not pan out, that it could all fall apart & I would look really foolish.
How many Mom's feel like that when their pregnancy or birth or life doesn't quite go the way they had it planned out in their head? How many of us feel like if we would have just done this or that maybe it would have been different? Why do we take on all of the weight of the world and try to hold it up high? Is it because if we don't, we fear it might crush us? I know a lot of Mom's & I've heard many stories . . . many of us take on stuff we just shouldn't.
So...of the many things I learned during the pregnancy of my 3rd child, here are a few. Things don't always go the way WE plan. Giving everything over to God ALL of the time is hard. Babies are smart, especially babies that are waiting to make their entrance into this world. Gods plan is ALWAYS greater than ours. Being educated on what is normal for birth changes the game of birth. Surrounding yourself with a great support team is so important. (Yes I mean your family & friends BUT also your team of care providers too!) Oh yea, and breastfeeding isn't always easy...even if you've done it before.
We need to be kind to expectant & new Momma's. We need to be encouraging, loving, empowering forces for women everywhere...no matter what stage of life they (or we) are in. No matter what our story is, it's our story. All babies are unique. All births are unique. Each of us is our own unique person. Each of us, as parents are unique. My beliefs are not your beliefs. Information is just information. That's the great thing, you get to decide what you get to do with it.
Did I get my 9 months naturally? Well, that depends on your definition. My journey was my journey. Most would say yes, I would say not totally. So 2 ultrasounds later and 6 months of light duty, I had my beautiful daughter. I must say it was the most amazing birth yet. But at some point, I had to let go of my fears and remember all that I have learned. I had to remember: "I was MADE to birth." It's one my three wonderful birth stories. Maybe it will be a post for another day. If I don't chicken out!
